tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934801346803054870.post841075700706450199..comments2023-05-31T03:07:59.823-07:00Comments on Ramblings: Why Are People Afraid to Speak About God?Bond 007http://www.blogger.com/profile/11094676522141760954noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934801346803054870.post-69660077156146863162010-11-14T19:39:50.190-08:002010-11-14T19:39:50.190-08:00You just did the ONE thing I've been waiting f...You just did the ONE thing I've been waiting for from those who have read ALL of my blog. You dropped your wall of PRIDE. Pride and fear. These two emotions, if you will, are mankind's biggest impediments to personal growth. It's really quite simple and once one is REALLY truthful, first with theirself and then with God, "coming out" is such a huge weight lifted off one's shoulders. <br /><br />I remain hopeful that more of my fellow man comes to this realization as I have in this life. It's LIBERATING!<br /><br />Thank you Cherie for your forthrightness, honesty, and your love for LIFE!Bond 007https://www.blogger.com/profile/11094676522141760954noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934801346803054870.post-61559529757474161802010-11-14T19:30:12.857-08:002010-11-14T19:30:12.857-08:00Goodness. Gus, the time-tested challenge of manki...Goodness. Gus, the time-tested challenge of mankind. Summed up by goodness. <br /><br />Your question? Is there something that's happened in my life that I can give no explanation why it happened and not because of something I did or didn't do?<br /><br />Honestly, this is painful. Makes me WEEP! Yes yes yes! <br /><br />Anorexia. You know, before that, I was going to be valedictorian, become a medical doctor in college and go to Cornell University. I wrote it all out, tried so hard. Took a few chances, got to fearing the Freshman Fifteen and figured out MUCH later that only beer could do that to my body. I hate the stuff! So, I stopped eating. I ditched entire days of school and in Greeley County, SOMEONE always knows. I lied out the wazzoo...ate bottles of Hydroxycut and ran thirty miles at a shot. I lied CONSTANTLY and you have no idea....but that becomes you and is harder to stop than any drug, even diet pills. I weight eighty-four pounds when I turned eighteen. The fear of failure gripped me so much that it got THAT bad. That was the most pathetic low. Because of it, my brain chemistry was wrecked for YEARS. I only kept running to cope with it. I lied to my parents, teachers, coaches, brother, to God, myself and my hero....Grandma. I did horrible things that will affect me for the remainder of life on this earth. Those things cannot be undone. I don't know WHY they happened. God only knows. <br /><br />When I got to college, I met another girl who was a leader in some capacity, and we were both horribly ugly and stricken. Same disease. Different people. We saw it in each other and I thank God for Andrea. The experience taught me to quit judging others. To look at the heart of a person. It has taken bad relationships, both with family and in terms of "love or lust" getting my heart broken, being used, feeling worthless and forgetting how much God loved me until every time I get dragged down, HE rescues me. I've been hungry,homeless, jobless, poor and tired of running that sort of life. I Thank GOD every day because HE is truly all I have. I know reality pretty well, have lived fifty years in 25 and feel like I'm good with God....if in fact the 2012 theory ha ha) is true. You have NO idea how stark the parallels between alcoholism and anorexia ring true, but they do. <br /><br />I thank God for survivors and for the heightened sensitivity we as survivers have. The secret is that you are always shocked but MANY people have these horrors. Self-awareness is a byproduct of human struggle and the Grace of God is all that we have to hold on to, so pile it on. If more of us understood that, this world would hurt so much less!<br /><br />THANK YOU, Gus!The Funky Spunky Penguinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17907594698703377338noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934801346803054870.post-16213097725006958102010-11-14T17:25:57.545-08:002010-11-14T17:25:57.545-08:00Thank YOU for the nice compliment! And you're ...Thank YOU for the nice compliment! And you're right, we all have a journey to walk, HOW we do it is another thing entirely.Bond 007https://www.blogger.com/profile/11094676522141760954noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7934801346803054870.post-36937033993024560482010-11-14T14:53:08.400-08:002010-11-14T14:53:08.400-08:00Thank-You, Gus this is sooooo well written. What ...Thank-You, Gus this is sooooo well written. What an inspirational story of your faith walk. <br /><br />We all have a journey with God to walk and how we do it is another thing. Believe and you shall inherit the earth. Words to live by.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com